fuck

I didn't even realize what it said until now. And it fucking pisses me off. So I'll throw my tantrum and play my game until I get begging. And this is my cycle of ruining anything remotely good. Even though I can never tell if it really is actually good to begin with. Why am I always so lost when it comes to figuring out the truth. I HATE SKETCHYNESS.

and right now i hate my parents and i hate my sister. i hate her for all of this. i'm so frustrated right now I can't even describe it. I've cried more because of her in the past 2 months than anything else. Shes so selfish. I get blamed and interrogated for everything because of her. I DONT KNOW ANYTHING STOP ASKING ME. ASK HER. I hate this i hate crying. I want to leave all of this. I need to get my mind someplace else tonight.