up &breathing

I feel okay lately. Family is positive. Daddy on Wednesday. School is just blah. Those two weeks have put me so behind and I'm just disgustingly unmotivated.. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do next year. I keep putting off making any sort of decision. Typical.

My mind is skipping forward to mid-month. I can't wait to leave this state, my life, even for just ten days. I can't wait to be in NYC again &see my family. I can't wait to go shopping (usual marc jacobs trip!). I CANNOT wait for Spumoni. I can't wait to see everyone in Boston and finally see him after this month without. Finally no need for all night phone/txt conversations. Relief.

These next 10 days need to speed by. This year seems so weird. No definite plans, it's unsettling to be at a point where I don't know exactly what I'm doing. I've always been comfortable with it, but now it seems drastic.
I just
don't
know.